This morning I drove to the ocean. Again.
I keep finding myself here. It seems to call me throughout the week, saying "come." I used to not like the ocean; I am a "woodsy" girl myself. The ocean seemed so windy, so salty, and made my hair do crazy things.
But lately I find myself driving there, again and again.
The rain drizzled and the water was clear blue. I saw sea lions playing. No whales or dolphins today, who were probably seeking shelter from the pelting rain above them.
The weather and the water matched my mood. Cloudy, overcast, slightly raining.
I have been discouraged lately. Everytime I see someone else publish a book, it reminds me that mine is still sitting here. I am working hard but seeming to go nowhere. Doors are opening still, but I am experiencing writer's block, and worker's block, and mommy's block- and whatever else kind of "block" there is. I feel a little stuck. I wonder if this dream will ever become a reality, or will I fail as I have failed in many other ways in my life?
And yet when I sit at the ocean, I feel a calmness wash over me. I look at the vast expanse and am reminded of God's sovereignty, that He created it all. And He reminds me to get back up. Again.
jaimie! hi! i'm rhonda, and i posted on FMF right after you. what a blessing this post is to me, and a divinely inspired. i'm feeling so many of the same things you are. i'm here in texas, nowhere near the ocean, but i feel a pull to it myself. and writing...i don't have a book, but the desire is there, and i feel a sense of discouragement at times as well. oh--and this is only my second time to FMF, so we have that in common, too. :0) thanks for participating! so good to 'meet' you!
ReplyDeleteoh! and my blog is blogaronindees.blogspot.com :0)
DeleteHopefully you can take a step back see your achievements and progress rather than focus on the things unfinished. So many times the words "some day" have slipped from my lips, but then I have to remind myself that if I keep worrying about tomorrow, I'll miss out on today. Stopping by from 5 Minute Friday.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had an ocean to crawl to, especially on my discouraging days...lately I probably wouldn't leave. Thank you for sharing and being an encouragement.
ReplyDeleteI love you Jaimie. Praying you get unstuck and for endurance to keep going. The world needs your words.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, Jaimie.
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