Thursday, February 5, 2009

I Wasn't There

Today I picked Micah up from preschool, and he had a bloody nose and a big, fat lip. His preschool teacher told me that he had fallen out of the sand box (about a foot high off the ground), flat onto his face. She and another teacher kept saying how brave he was, that he didn't even cry. But I know my boy. My boy holds it in. He doesn't like to cry in front of other people. At 3 1/2, he's already figured out how to stuff his emotions deep inside...poor baby. My heart just broke for him. They didn't call me because he wasn't crying and he seemed okay (and I know he is), but all that was going through my head was "I wasn't there!"

It was the first time he's had any kind of accident when I wasn't there to comfort him. He came home and looked at himself in the mirror, but didn't say much about it. I was waiting. Then, a few minutes ago, I went in his room because he was supposed to be taking a nap, and I found him crying. I held him and rocked him as he let it all out. "I fell down," he said; "I hurt myself." "I know, baby. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry mommy wasn't there to hold you."

All a part of growing up, but hard for both of us...

The picture doesn't really do justice to how bad it looks in person, but he will be okay.

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  2. Oh Jaimie! That is just awful. What a tough little guy. So amazing as I have the girls who bump their toes and come crying to let me know that it happened. What a good Mommy that you are, so in tune to how he processes things.

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  3. Oh - poor little guy. So great that he can let down his guard with you. This won't be the last time and now he knows that you will be there, even if you aren't "there."

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  4. Poor little guy! He knows you would have wanted to be there - growing up is hard! I remember the first time Ella got really hurt at school, much older, but she was really crying, they didn't let her call :(

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  5. awww :( that is SO sad! I had to hold back from tearing up over this post - he is so strong! I couldn't have taken seeing him break like that in his bedroom. I wish we could always be there for my our children too, but it's not always going to be possible. I'm so glad God watches over them when we can't be there though! Micah is SO adorable, even with his little puffy lip :)

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  6. I am so sorry that happened...it is so hard when our kids get hurt. I HATE it! Thank you for sharing this post, Jaimie....I hope his lip heals quickly!

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