Tuesday, January 3, 2012
These past 3 days have been the hardest; getting back into the daily schedule and starting school again.
In the midst of all of that, yesterday I started a new job! I'd been looking for something for over a month, and just the right opportunity came along. I'll be working as an administrative assistant for a counseling center, part-time there and part-time at home, and only about 10 hours a week.
It has been an exciting week, but also draining, and I feel those familiar body aches and sore throat that signal I have been a bit stressed and need to recoop for a few days.
Today I was thinking about change, and how even when change is good, it can be hard.
In December our church consolidated with another church - a huge change. We are now meeting at a new building, have different service times, different responsibilities, and are meeting a lot of new people. Good, but hard.
Yesterday I went to work and felt good about it, but today felt more emotional. I realize that this is my last "semester" with Jaden at home before he enters Kindergarten. I cherish my times with him. Although I need to work (and want to), there is a little twinge of guilt every time I leave him. Sure, he's in school on the mornings I work, but I've always been the one to drop him off and pick him up, and I won't always be able to do that now. Again, good change, but hard.
The past two weeks we cleaned up a lot and got rid of Jaden's old car seats. We officially bumped him up into a booster seat, and he loves it. Just a small change, but it reminds us that he is growing up and leaving the baby stage behind.
As my boys are leaving my side a little more these days, I see that we are entering a brand new stage. A stage that is good, but hard. It is always hard to watch your babies grow up and need you a little bit less.
The next two months I'll be focused on working and preparing for the Re:Write Conference in March. I'm finishing a book proposal and entering a writing contest, and it is taking a ton of energy and focus. Good, but hard!
We are only 3 days into 2012 and I see that this is already a year of change and growth. This is really interesting, because last December I wrote about how I saw 2011 as a year of change. It was a year of change, but 2012 might be even more of that!
What change are you currently going through and how are you feeling about it?