January 1st came and went, and I've barely had time to stop and reflect on 2011 yet. These past 2 weeks flew by so fast, and we had so much activity going on, that all my free time was just spent catching up on much-needed sleep! I'm so thankful for the time we had together as a family and with friends.
These past 3 days have been the hardest; getting back into the daily schedule and starting school again.
In the midst of all of that, yesterday I started a new job! I'd been looking for something for over a month, and just the right opportunity came along. I'll be working as an administrative assistant for a counseling center, part-time there and part-time at home, and only about 10 hours a week.
It has been an exciting week, but also draining, and I feel those familiar body aches and sore throat that signal I have been a bit stressed and need to recoop for a few days.
Today I was thinking about change, and how even when change is good, it can be hard.
In December our church consolidated with another church - a huge change. We are now meeting at a new building, have different service times, different responsibilities, and are meeting a lot of new people. Good, but hard.
Yesterday I went to work and felt good about it, but today felt more emotional. I realize that this is my last "semester" with Jaden at home before he enters Kindergarten. I cherish my times with him. Although I need to work (and want to), there is a little twinge of guilt every time I leave him. Sure, he's in school on the mornings I work, but I've always been the one to drop him off and pick him up, and I won't always be able to do that now. Again, good change, but hard.
The past two weeks we cleaned up a lot and got rid of Jaden's old car seats. We officially bumped him up into a booster seat, and he loves it. Just a small change, but it reminds us that he is growing up and leaving the baby stage behind.
As my boys are leaving my side a little more these days, I see that we are entering a brand new stage. A stage that is good, but hard. It is always hard to watch your babies grow up and need you a little bit less.
The next two months I'll be focused on working and preparing for the Re:Write Conference in March. I'm finishing a book proposal and entering a writing contest, and it is taking a ton of energy and focus. Good, but hard!
We are only 3 days into 2012 and I see that this is already a year of change and growth. This is really interesting, because last December I wrote about how I saw 2011 as a year of change. It was a year of change, but 2012 might be even more of that!
What change are you currently going through and how are you feeling about it?
Change was one of my "three words" for 2011 and my one word for this year is Grow.
ReplyDelete