Thursday, April 9, 2009

Update... and Easter according to toddlers

The past few days have been rough for me. I have been giving in some to the anxiety and worry that come with not knowing where we are going to live next. I vacillate between strong faith and weak faith, hope and hopelessness. Knowing that God can handle my varying emotions makes it a little easier to be honest. It's not that I don't have faith that He will provide a place. I KNOW He will. I have no doubt that we WILL have a roof over our heads. But it's all the nagging questions that get to me: will it be in a place we want to live? Will it be big enough? Will the price be low enough? And on and on it goes.

We had three leads to houses and had waited over a week to hear on them, which was really frustrating. Well, today we got an answer to all three leads. No, No, and No. Back to square one. My heart says "Rest in Him." "Be still." "Don't worry." "Trust Him." But my mind stays busy. It is 21 days until May 1, when we should be out. But we have a "grace period" of another 30 days if nothing works out.

Today at MOPS I heard a speaker talk about Easter and how it was the "day that changed everything." And while she was speaking I was reminded of another speaker who once said "It may be Friday. Hopelessness, Despair, Fear. But Sunday's coming!" So that is what I'm holding on to right now. I really want my focus to be on Him this Easter, instead of myself and our situation.

Another thing that happened today at MOPS was that Jaden made a little craft for Easter. When I picked him up, he showed me what he colored:

He said "Jesus. Hurt. Owie." I love that childlike faith; the learning that starts so young. It is so great knowing these seeds are being planted. He turned it over and showed me the other side:

"House." he said :)

Micah saw it and said "You made this, Googy? That's nice! Thank you!" then he said "Where are his sandals, mommy? The bad guys took them? They put him in the tomb with the big rock. The bad guys closed it and they put him in the big door and they didn't see him. And now Jesus is alive again!"


  1. Hey girl! Loving you bunches even from far away and I know that God is going to be with you and the family every step of the way. Praying with you FOR you!

    Happy Easter!

  2. All I can say is "I've been there. I've walked in those shoes and came out on the other side." God WILL answer your prayers and something WILL work out. He who began a good work will be faithful to complete it, and all that other good stuff :D
    Love you muchly!!